I have gotten into the bad habit of saying I am surviving.
"How are you doing, today?"
"Oh, I'm surviving."
"How was it having your whole family in for a visit?"
"I survived it."
"What's it like raising your very own Tasmanian devil?"
"I hope I'll survive it."
"How about raising a drama queen?"
"I'll never survive it"
What an awful attitude!! It was startling to me when I realized this is who I had become, because it is not who I feel myself to be. Deep down, I love my life. I have just allowed negativity to dominate my thoughts and speech, to the point that inside my head, negativity has become a habit. And it keeps popping out of my mouth!
So my new resolve is to make my life about more than survival: to not be a housewife, but a homemaker; not a mother, but a mamma; not a spouse, but a wife; not an acquaintance, but a friend. You can see this is quite an undertaking, and I am hoping this blog will help me. I hope to record some of the steps I will take in the pursuit of these goals. I hope to record realizations I come to, as I change my ways. Most of all, I am hoping that this blog becomes a journal of my transformation from a woman who is just surviving, to one who is flourishing. I have been richly blessed, and it would be a real shame to not relish these blessings.
So that is what I want to blog about. That is what I am hoping you will comment on, because I know myself well enough to know this; if I attempt to do this privately, on my own, I will fail. I need to be held accountable. I need to be praised. But, most importantly, I need your prayers.